The Girl From There

Farewell

2011-09-22T06:35:00.000-07:00

I´m not good atthis, but now I want to talk about it.

10 years ago,I got timid, terrified, low self-esteem in a Belly Dance School. In the hall Isaw a beautiful tall, slim woman with long black hair and big green eyes. Laterthey told me she would be my dance teacher.

During allthis time we grew up together. We learned about many things. We learned aboutto dance, to smile, to cry, about people, about ourselves, about life.

During allthis time, and this time was always insufficient to us(me and all the girls),we talked about our problems, sadness, happiness, our families, fears, bravery,future… I always joked that wasn´t a dance classes but group therapy.

Her attemptsto make me dance in public. Were always funny.

The conscienceof our body, the exotic music, the same energy made those classes very special.In the end, it was like the problems or negative things stayed far away from us.They disappeared. We always felt better than begin.

And we hadyou, Carol, our teacher. Your way to make us believe that there is more than wesee. There is more than we have. We can be more than we are.

We followedyou wherever you were, but now you are living us. Forever?! I don´t know. Youdon´t know. Nobody knows. What we know is that the soul doesn´t recognizedistance. Memory neither.

You are askingus our goodbye. You will get married and will live abroad.

I won´t tellyour goodbye. I don´t want to.

But you mustsay goodbye to yesterday. Don´t lookbehind.

I hope you bothhave happiness in your way, in your new wife and husband life.

Don´t beafraid.

Be what youalways showed us what you are. Or, if you need to change, make it is the bestto.

You can be allthat you want.

Thank you forall!!!

Laugh andremember: The trip is better when thereis someone saying us goodbye in the departure and there is someone saying us helloin the arrival.

75 ways to stay unhappy forever

2011-08-29T14:05:00.000-07:00

Dale Carnegie once said: “It isn’t what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It’s what you think about.”

I read it in somewhere and I liked.

Dwell on things that happened in the past.
Obsess yourself with all the things that might happen in the future.
Complain about problems instead of taking the necessary steps to resolve them.
Fear change and resist it.
Work hard, do your best and then condemn yourself for not achieving perfection.
Belittle yourself.
Hang out with other people who belittle you.
Try to control everything and then worry about the things you can’t control.
Lie to yourself and those around you.
Keep doing the same thing over and over again.
Be lazy and follow the path of least resistance.
Hold onto anger. Never forgive anyone.
Always be right. Never let anyone else be more right than you.
Compare yourself unfavorably to those who you feel are more successful.
Let small issues snowball into big problems.
Never learn anything new.
Never take responsibility for your own actions.
Blame everyone around you.
Don’t ask for directions and don’t ask questions.
Don’t let anyone help you.
Quit when the going gets tough.
Be suspicious. Trust no one.
Get four hours of sleep every night and convince yourself that it’s enough.
Never throw anything way. Even if you don’t use it, hold onto it.
Say “yes” to everyone. Fill all your time with commitments.
Try to be everyone’s friend.
Multitask, multitask, multitask! Do everything at once.
Never spend any time alone.
Don’t help others unless you have to. Do only the things that benefit you directly.
Hang out with people who complain about everything.
Focus on what you don’t want to happen.
Fear the things you don’t fully understand.
Always seek external validation before you consider yourself good enough.
Take everything and everyone in life seriously.
Spend your life working in a career field you aren’t passionate about.
Focus on the problems.
Think about all the things you don’t have.
Read or watch lots of depressing news from broadcast media.
Set lofty goals for yourself and never do anything to achieve them.
Never exercise.
Only eat junk food and fried food.
Never check-up on your health.
Setup your lifestyle so it revolves around money.
Spend more than you earn and rack up lots of financial debt.
Don’t say what you mean. Don’t mean what you say.
Frown.
Never tell anyone how you feel or what you’re thinking.
Make sure everything you do impresses someone else.
Always put your own needs on the back burner.
Get involved in other people problems and make them your own.
Make others feel bad about themselves.
Watch TV for several hours every day.
Gamble often.
Stay in the same place. Don’t travel.
Don’t play, just work.
Let your hobbies go.
Let your close relationships go.
Never finish what you start.
Take everything personally.
Do lots of drugs. Drink lots of alcohol.
Never say, “I’m sorry.” Never say, “I love you.”
Don’t work hard at anything.
Always wait until the last minute.
Believe that, no matter what, you are entitled to things.
Let others make decisions for you.
Remember the insults. Forget the compliments.
Let it all bottle up inside.
Rely on others for everything.
Fail to plan.
Don’t dream.
Don’t think about the future at all.
Always disregard other people’s opinions and suggestions.
Make promises you can’t keep.
Don’t decide on anything, ever.
Just keep going and going and going. And never ever stop.

To write while I can

2011-08-26T14:01:00.000-07:00

There will be changes in my life and it isn´t going to let me terrified. It will be only “challenge”. One more for my career.

Every body knows about the love that I have for Spanish language. It´s not a secret.

But I start to walk for a new place.

Karl Marx said: 2 kingdoms. “To need” and “Freedom”.

In the Freedom´s kingdom I was doing all I want. It was my pleasure. And in the second kingdom I do what I´ll have to do because I need it.

To find balance in both are essential but not always we get it.

Personally I feel better in the Freedom ´s Kingdom. I do not know yet all the others places in the “To Need´s Kingdom”. An example is this composition.

And both are not closed for us. We can go and back as we want.

Well, I will start with English classes again.

Since 1 month I´m trying to convince me that it won´t be bad.

It will be funny.

I HOPE SO. :-/

Normal

2011-06-16T16:36:00.000-07:00

Definitely I don’t know how to wait. I´m not patient.

And if you have two people beside you and they are talking about a lot of things and these things are nonsense… Oh boy… It´s terrible. Two women who think they are teens.

Please… kill me or then.

Ah… I forgot… I´m waiting for my nutritionist. :-/

After going to my gynecologist, I discovered, no, I´m lying, he told me I´m overweight.

This is what happens when I work only with my brain. Not my body.

This is the price I pay for being an intelligent woman.

I don´t know about you, but I´m scared when I see one young woman that I´ve never met, beautiful and slim and she has the power to put me on diet. Worse: She will make my diet.

Well, since Friday I´m eating every three hours, no fat, no sugar, less carbohydrates, less meat, I didn´t kill anyone, my car and my house are still there… I think I´m adapting pretty well.

Cold Days

2011-05-21T14:22:00.000-07:00

I like to talk about missing someone on a rainy day.

The cold, gray days, inviting us to be quiet… To miss someone or something is as natural as sigh.

To me, it´s hard to speak about missing someone in the sunny days. Hot days.

It´s hard to speak about missing someone when I don´t receive any message in these days.

It´s hard to speak about missing someone these days because I have only memory to help me, remembering me that you’re here.

You exist.

You live beside here.

I don´t need to invent you. You neither.

“When a new love is born, is very hard to resist the temptation to take our presence felt everyday. But, we must let it breathe. If you put it in a glass vase, like we use to do with flowers (because we´re terrified that the wind and the time take its beauty) we will have during a short time what is really beauty in love.

What I learned about love is love is made of absence and presence. And both are important.

I learned that love is made of freedom. To have, everyday, many choices and to choose the same thing, the same freedom choice everyday.

The small victory makes you happy. To love and to be loved. To discover in their eyes that you were picked again and again.

What I learned about love – and I learned about love by myself – is love requires much of me, a great effort. A daily exercise that I can´t say no to.”

You ever be my best inspiration.

The time has gone

2011-05-09T15:31:00.000-07:00

I saw almost every morning in your eyes;

I walked in the same step as you;

I drank your smiles;

I cried because your absence;

I played the games of adults;

I believed that you and me belong here.

One day, in the middle of the night

I woke up listening to the words telling me:

You don´t know anything about the world.

You don´t know how to play, little child.

“Some dance to remember, some dance to forget.”

Wait for you

2011-05-09T15:28:00.000-07:00

Waiting for you is just to remember how you are and tremble thinking about it.

Waiting for you, in fact, is not to wait. It is to say your name and to know it is what we feel. It is the same smile in the same moment as a sequence of images change in our minds.

To stop breathing and so I breathe deeply secretly so you don´t hear me, I don´t hear you and even so it is like we are responding to each others:

Yes, I´m here.

I´m thinking of you.

I´m feeling you.

So...

2011-05-09T13:02:00.000-07:00

Let´s start.